Hello Film Industry

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As I've mentioned earlier , I'm taking the Audio Video Production subject for this semester . It is an interesting subject , okay I've talked about this too .

On my previous class , Mr.Faizul give a full 3 hours of lecture on script-writing . From A-Z . He taught us about the techniques , process and showed us the sample . Frankly speaking , I've never thought that script writing is hard . Because the actors made it looks so easy .

To be honest , I didn't pay full attention in class on that day . I was terribly sleepy , can't stop myself from yawning . Thanks to the huge iMac in front of me , I managed to take a short nap without Mr.Faizul noticing . Not sure if he didn't notice me or he pretend that he didn't saw me sleeping .

Anyway , he also play some short clips of the movie Ninja Assassin , the one played by Rain about these crazy ninjas killing people . I've never watch the full movie of it , so ofcourse I didn't know the real story about the movie . Well , he showed us the clip to actually explain to us on how the script should be .

One scene of the movie shouldn't be too long . True , if a scene of a same issue is going on too long , the audience will get bored and they may not wait til the end . I thought that they do it on purpose , never thought that there's a reason why they kept changing the angle and such .

We were unofficially assigned to write a 5 minutes script which is approximately 7 pages . ERK yeah , my head is fulll loads of idea . This is very challenging , but still I thought it was cheesy until I go through the script layout . I wanna cry , feed me chocolate please .

You may never want to see it , it's as complicated as the complicated maze . But that makes this assignment a challenge .

I have no idea what kind of script I'd like to write for now . I'm still watching a few good movies , that I like , hoping that I would get some inspiration . Plus , Mr.Faizul said the script has to be something that is shoot-able , suitable for our current condition . If not , I would've write about the story on Jenna & her friends , the one I wrote when I was 16 .

This is very interesting , and I'm pretty much excited as I'm about to get involve in the local film industry , eventhough as an amateur , erk wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy amateur . Nevermind , this is the phase that everybody go through , the learning process .

Hope that I'll do well :) CHEERS to FILM INDUSTRY !

AU REVOIR , XOXO ! 

Thanks but no thanks .

photo from the web

Thank you for explaining , I really appreciated it . Thank you for waking me up from my deep sleep . I just play along with your game til I realise I was really into it . But I'm alright now , I'm okay . And I don't lie about that . You don't have to make it up to me or do anything to make me feel good about it , because I'm okay . You made me realise that I'm still a human being when I still have faith in you .

I must say that I've been fooled by you because I sort of trust you , and I believe that I'm stone-cold and I won't get hurt again . But seriously I'm okay , so how do I put these in words and make you understand ? I'm done , and I don't want of this shits anymore . It's not that I'm hurting that much and the only thing I know is drug and suicide . No no , I'm not that stupid . It's just I feel slightly hurt and I don't want to get myself into trouble with another person , bonding , making a special relationship .

I'm seriously okay . I don't need someone to keep on apologizing and making thousand promise of making it up to me , I really don't .

You don't need to tell me how bad you miss me , because I know , you did because your girlfriend wasn't there for you but I was . And everytime your girlfriend ignores you , I was there to keep you company .

I know relationships , been through it a lot of times . I've learnt much til I'm hating the subject . But I'm not going to give up on it , I'm just going to give up on you . Because I had enough of you . I'm no longer your toy . I'm sorry that I got so sick of you .

But we're still friends , just friends .

You are my love

You Are My Love - Kim Yeon Woo (Ost Lie To Me)

Korean Version : 
bogosipdago malhaedo ijen andoegetjyo
geuriwohamyeon halsurok naman dachigetjyo

gwaenchanhayo geudae my love
namgyeojin chueongmaneuro
apado utge doenikka

you are my love
eotteoke geudael itgo saragayo
ajikdo jugeulmankeum geuriunde
nunbusyeotdeon uriui sarangeul dugo
naega eotteoke tteonayo

nunchido eobsi nunmuri ulkeok ssodajyeoyo
bappeun harudo geudaereul mireonaeji motae

eotteongayo geudae my love
harudo dan han sungando
jeongmal geuripji annnayo

you are my love
eotteoke geudael itgo saragayo
ajikdo jugeulmankeum geuriunde
nunbusyeotdeon uriui sarangeul dugo
naega eotteoke tteonayo

saranghae saranghae~
imal kkok hago sipeunde gaseumman chineyo
wae mollasseulkkayo wae motaesseulkkayo
ijeneun hago sipeodo hal suga eomneun mal
you are my love

you are my all
eotteoke geudae eobsi saragayo
ireoke amugeotdo motaneunde
gieokhana beoriji motaneun
naega geudael eotteoke ijeoyo

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English Version : 
I wanted to see you, but now I don’t
Even if I miss you a lot, even if I’m the only one who cares about it

It’s alright, you’re my love
Only memories remains
even laughing becomes painful

you are my love
since the last time, how could you forget about my existence
I still miss you to death
What do I see? Our love is over
How could you leave me?

Without even noticing, tears poured down
You’re busy everyday, I can’t push you to me

How could this be, you’re my love
for just a moment of the day
I really don’t wanna miss you

you are my love
since the last time, how could you forget about my existence
I still miss you to death
What do I see? Our love is over
How could you leave me?

I love you. I love you~
I wanna say this, but my heart has been blind
I don’t know why, I can’t I have you
Now I want to … but I can’t say
you are my love

you are my all
how could you live without me?
Like this I can’t do anything
Do you remember you can’t throw me away?
How could you forget about last time?

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I really love the lyric , very meaningful and deep . Enjoiceeeeeeee :) 

One night in Ipoh .

This post isnt an interesting post . Just want to share some photos . 

All photos were taken in Ipoh , at my house ofcourse . Didnt get the chance to go out at night AT ALL . 

The first photo is quite dark . 

I forgot to bring my tripod -.-' 

Ze durian stall .

Taken from far 

I like this one the most .

Over-exposed eh ? 

I did this just for fun :) 

BYE ! 

Hello blog

It's JULY ! 

And I'm writing again . My last post was on June 13 . Previous post pretty much desribe how I feel at that time . In fact , Im still missing him . Can't believe , after so long . I still couldnt let it go . 

No , this is not about the one who broke my heart into pieces til there's nothing left . But it's about the one whom I used to know , who went somewhere and never came back . Actually he did , but he's no longer who I thought he is . I bet anybody who had read my blog , sure know about it . And im sure for keep on posting such uninteresting story in my blog . 

Anyway , my result is out on the 7th . So , wish me luck with that . 

And urm , I dont want to blog much about what had happened few weeks ago , because nothing fancy about it . So , I'll just leave it alone . And urm , I'm on Flickr :) Just for fun , Im trying to spread the photos I took . Still in learning process :)

My favourite Ikan Kering shop in Ipoh

I dont really remember the name of the shop , but I certainly know where it is located . It is in the old town of Ipoh or most people called it as " Pekan Lama " where the buildings are really old , but still standing . I'm so proud of it , but I think they should give it a new paint *tiba tiba sangat* 

I'm a huge fan of saltiness . I like salty stuff . I really like pickles lah , but I don't eat those jeruk buah and such . I like dried fish , dried squid and all . Basically dried seafood . And this shop sells everything that I like . Ussually we borong lah , because we like to stock it up in our fridge . 

This is the beans . 

Dried sea cucumber . 

Anchovies ! 

Didnt have the chance to snap the photo of dried fish and more . But this shop is unbelievably big . They sell almost everything , to chinese ginseng/herbs to dried foods :)




And I forgot to take the photos of ikan kering and some other stuff .

Hello I'm a little Gatal tonight .

Tonight I shall unfold some secret of my own . I am almost 19 years old . I am a girl with lust for things . I have a dream , big one .

One ; To be successful in everything I do .

Two ; To make my family proud . 

Third ; To be merry and happy all the time . 

Fourth ; To have a a wonderful job . 

Fifth ; To be well-known ( in a good way ) .

Sixth ;  To serve my country in my own way .

Seventh ; To have a stable financial .

Eigth ; To take care of my parents .

Nineth ; To settle down with a man who deserve me .

Tenth ; To be a proud parents . 

I was born and born in a complete family . I still have both of my parents . I am always at the center . I was not rich , but I was not poor too . I did not get what I want all the time , but I sometimes get them when I behave . I was not spoilt much , I was taught to looked around from various angle . 


I must say that Im pretty much fussy , in almost everything . You know , sometimes I really want to see how my life would be in 8 years time . I'm afraid of getting married to a wrong man , and screw up my life . I dont want to make a huge mistake like that . I dont want to fall for a wrong person . I dont want to get married or date someone now , I just want to know . I need to know . 


I dont know what I'm thinking now . 8 years isn't that far from now . Hurm :( 

Broken heart quotes .

I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it, cause I'm in love with you.

 Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live.

There's this place in me where your finger tips still rest... your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo... It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.

I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?

 I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile.

You don't realize how much you care about someone until they don't care about you.

Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see him smile you suddenly realize you're just pretending you're over him to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be yours.

Irritated by ....

I'm still in Ipoh , and the other day , during her last visit , he left her comic at my other home , the one in Shah Alam . Totally forgot about it , til he text me . I'm still not in my best mood to see him , I'm still mad about the things that he did . I know that I shouldnt be mad for long , but you know , I've change . I want to be a better person , and to be a better person , you got to make a move , leave everything that could stop you or make you change your mind and so , behind . So thats what I did , I left everything behind . 


I feel so good , I dont have to keep lying , I dont have to keep committing sin , I dont have to do anything wrong or illegal anymore . 


I know that it's mean for me to say this , but you know , I think I know why we happen to see each other like most of the time . I was bored and you were there . It's like I'm a 5years old kid , and I'm really sick of my toys at home , so I went out to the park to play , and when I'm done playing , I'll go back and play with the toys I have at home . Same goes to our situation . I was bored and stupid , and you were there , at the wrong place and time . I am terribly sorry for playing with your feelings , call me a bitch , I just dont care . It's just a word , it wont hurt me as much as I did to you .


This might hurt you a little , but you need to know . 


First and foremost , you know the guy I told you , that I said he was my bff , the one who I kept my and his photo in my purse and handphone , he wasn't just a friend of mine . He was more than just a normal friend , best boyfriend . The guy I hang out with on your last paper of SPM . I am truly sorry he wasnt just a friend . He was one of my sweetheart . He's more important than you . If you still remember , I begged for you to celebrate my birthday together with my other friends , I wasnt begging for real , I wanted him to come , like so badly . My bad that I couldnt arrange my time wisely . I have to go out with you , with her , with him and him . I have to see 4 "love-of-my-life" , on the same day . And I ran out of time . But in the end , I managed to spent 20minutes with you , an hour with him , One and a half  hour with her and a couple hours with him . 


Thats not all , 


The day I said Im goin back to school with my classmates , movie with them and then go to my friend's party . It was another lie as well . I wasnt with my classmates all day long , he was there with me . I went to school with my classmates , movie with him and one of my friend , pre-dinner , and we hang out at my friend's house playing Xbox . We were together all day long , he was the one who sent me back . And I told you I slept early right , actually I was on the phone with him .


Few days after that , 


The night I cried badly , it wasnt because of the movie I watch on the tele , it was because of him . 


Too bad for you , Im sorry . 


There's more , 


After he went away , I kept on lying to you , I got closer to this one guy . He was my ex-es friend's . We've never went on a real date , but goin on a date with a guy that could treat me as good as him isnt important . You called me everynight , but he went online with me everysinglehour . He was the perfect guy , he's  very nice . He said nothing but only the nicest thing that I'd like to hear . 


And and , I just dont like you anymore now . Im glad that I had put a fullstop to us. So I hope that you could do the same thing too . Im not thinking about you anymore . You dont come in my dreams , this is mean , but the is for real , facts . I made a mistake , one of it is you . We can be friends til the day I die , only if you promise that you wont drool over me , Im not that yummy , you cant eat me . Im not chicken or beef . I bet you are not batak , so please get over me . And and If I dont want to get over somebody else , its my wish okayy . And and If I want to go on a date with some other guy , it is also my wish . You have no right to butt in , feel sad or whatever . I just dont like you anymore , so please dont treat me as if Im still your girlfriend , because I really feel irritated . 


Thank you . Sorry , have a good life :) 

tah apa punya orang tah

Pergi class , badan bawak , otak tertinggal kat rumah ? SO dumb

chipsmoreeee (sebut macam ni : chhibss-moo-rayy)

I seriously dont know why is this all happening to me , Ive been good but but people treat me like shit :(
Pergi mati lah kau buat aku nak nangis :'(
Masa kau nak pergi dulu beria je aku nangis air mata darah :'(
Beria je aku dengar kau nangis :'(
Chibs betul !
Memang macam bodoh lah kan aku melayan kau ?
Aku ada boyfriend pun aku still spend time dengan kau .
Sekali kau balik buat macam ini dengan aku .
Aku taw lah kalau ye pun kita baik balik macam pelik dan mustahil , tapi agak agak lah .
Takkan dengan dia kot ?
You gotta be kidding me!
I was your dumbest cheerleader .
I think I was always there for you ,
except those time when Im already in college .
But its not that I never tried .
Tolonglah , that dumbass over me ?
Serious kelakar. Kakak kau tau tak hal ni ?
You fool . Patutlah recently kau layan aku cam haram ,
sebab dumbass tu kan ?
HELLO ! I was perfect to you before ,
and HELLO I didnt change , not even a bit .
Urghhh tensi aku dengan kau ,
bukan kau tak boleh make up your mind nak pilih course apa ,
nak pakai baju apa pun tak taw .
Fuhh fuhhh , bernafas lah sheriza kamal !

Nak nangisssssssssssssss :'(

mengantuk , lagi .

It is 1.10 PM now . And I still feel sleepy . Mataa berat je . Mahu tidur , butttttttttttttt T_T

I'm so bored . 1 .

Just got a text message saying that there's no tutorial tomorrow . So , I think that I should chillex the whole day . So , while chillex-ing . I got so bored . And end up looking for interesting videos on youtube .

 And suddenly I think of make up . And I should look up for any good tutorial video and try them . And so , I try. I somehow still look uglehh . 

It doesnt look exactly , but okayy lah kot for noobs like me . And I dont have much tools . What I used for this "make over" are few things that I really have at home .

By using all the products , above . I got this final look , which doesnt look much different . 

Still ugleh T_T

on a wet sunday .

On a wet Sunday , we were busy preparing for the assignment . And after lunch , we felt sleepy . 

And and I got bored , mana ada penat bila kept on baca for hours . Trying to analyse all the "data" over and over again . So the girls made fun of me . And even I laughed at myself :D And now Im laughing at Zara hakhakk 

macam kelakar tapi tak kelakar pun

Seronok kan perasaan dicintai dan mencintai . Seronok juga perasaan disakiti dan menyakiti . Lagi seronok bila percayai dan tidak mempercayai . Seseorang itu mungkin berasa ingin bercinta bila terkenangkan kemanisan madu , tetapi seseorang itu akan terus lari dari cinta setelah teringat kepahitan "bittergourd" *taktahu bahasa melayu dia apa :D* dan kepedihan ibarat pedih hulu hati serta pesakitan bagai tergigit lidah sewaktu mengunyah makanan . Suka suka tak bermaksud cinta . Cinta tak bermaksud memiliki . Memiliki tak bermaksud kekal . Kekal tak bermaksud abadi . Habis itu apa yang bermaksud ? Aku pun dah pening -.-' 

Seronok bila terkenang zaman kawan kawan , suka suka , kenal kenal , pandang pandang , jeling jeling , super saver super saver . Kemaruk tak hingat dunia . Kadang kadang rasa macam nak melalui zaman itu balik . Kadang kadang tak hendak . Bila tengok , ada lah jealous sikit hear and there . Just a lil bit * sambil nyanyi lagu Too Phat *  . Poyo sangat dah ni . Hurm back to cerita . Zaman ini lah yang kalau orang itu kentut , orang ini tak bau walaupun orang kata busuk bau durian semalam . Hikhik . 

*nak letak gambar dengan boipren/ex boipren . but never kept them . break terus buang T_T * 

Bercinta memang fun , tapi purpose of bercinta :

• A . suka suka
• B . cepat kaya 
• C . lebih matang 
• D . berjaya dalam hidup . 

Jawapan : none of the above . 

Haizzzz bosan nya hidup ni . I mean buat menit ni , sebab cuma study tapi distracted T_T . Erm ermmm , seronok lah kalau ada orang teman . Erm erm ermmm seronok kan perasaan bila orang kata orang suka kita . Okayy perasan betul . Tapi betul apa , seronok kan perasaan tu ? Macam pathetic pulak rasa nya buat entri ni . Walaupun setengah orang kata berdua lebih baik , sebenarnya tak baik mana ? Kau kata kau berdua , tapi kau yakin ke kau berdua dan bukan bertiga . Tipu lah kau ni . Pasti ada syaitan kan , masyaallah . Walaupun seronok berdua , tapi aku suka double date triple date and so . Seronok . Tak pernah try ? Cubalah . 

*eish dah letih dah nak type , nak sambung baca . Ada lagi 1 chapter nak baca dalam masa dua jam . haha . Bye bye . Take care wish me luck 

P/s : takde niat nak sindir sesiapa :) Cheers ! 

ingin putus saja , sudah tak bisa . "eh eh , menyanyi sudah."

Tajuk kemain panjang , content hampesh . Just nak post video yang I found on youtube .

 Lagu Ingin Putus Saja by Gamaliel Audrey Cantika . Sedap sangat lagu ni . Cant stop playing it . And I cant stop from looking for other videos yang ada lagu ini . 

This is the original lyric video , by gamal . 

This one is live show . 

Suara Audrey macam a little semput , maybe sebab dorang keep on dancing . Kalau tak menari , it would be boringg kan .  Tapi Gamal punya stamina still tiptop . 

While this one is during some showcase . 

Sangat adore suara Cantika . Sedap sangat , If her voice is a chocolate . I'll be fat boy then . 

Urrr that sounds so wrong -.-' , sigh . 

Love the way they sing , their song , their voice and stuff , love what they're wearing as well . Sangat cute . and btw , I sangat like outfit si Gamal masa live show tu . Smart sangat and the hair do suits him well . Let's hope they berjaya to achieve whatever they want . And fyi , they started singing dalam youtube je . And one of the top video was a video of them singing Just Dance by Lady Gaga . Be sure to google them as well as listen to them , either from my post or youtube.com . Anyway , I've their song on my Music Player :) 

*Saja kelam kelam* 

my future sony ringtone

I found this song in youtube . Can't remember how , but I've downloaded it and gonna transfer it into my phone in the morning . Really like it  , like a lot . 

Anyway , I'm now watching Tangkai Jering . Watched it at the cinema before , but then I remembered that Farid Kamil had a few scenes in it . So I simply want to watch it again for the i dont know how many times . I love you Farid Kamil . Handsomeeee sangat . 

pink sunday

This isn't about the pink ribbon or pinky toes or pinky lips but pinky hair who goes black once in a while . I'm talking about Alecia Beth Moore better known by her stage name Pink which was actually spell as " P!NK " . I was online almost half of the day . Facebook-ing , google-ing for blog template , twitter-ing , youtube-ing . After listening to I whip my hair back forth " whip it real good" over and over again . I scroll down the suggestion and saw several P!NK songs . So , I simply give it a click . First song was , There You Go . It's one of her earliest song . Even I know her through that song . 

It was one of my favourite . The beat is pretty catchy . Love the lyric as well . Right after that I changed to Stupid Girls . The music video is really funny but it's partly a fact . I used to sing this song during my schooling days . Because you can see that there are different types of girl , some are stupid some are smart . There's a total different meaning between the two word . People who are really smart but has terrible social status is considered as stupid , and sometimes are called geeks . While people who are not intelligent at all are called smart because of their physical . The definition are pretty much the same to most people . 

"Maybe if I act like that, 

flipping my blonde hair back
Push up my bra like that, 

I don't wanna be a stupid girl"

I never want to be a stupid girl . Better be a geek rather than an idiot . 

Another song from P!nk as well . I like the song ,I dislike the music video . Especially the naked-cover-me-with-petals . I think they are much better without having to run naked .  Nothing much about that song . What I like about P!NK's song is that it's different from all her song . And she tries to tell the world the truth , from her own perspective but somehow she sometimes express it in a little harsh way . But it gets to your heart mind easier . 









This is my all time favourite . It is a new song from P!NK , Fuckin Perfect . This song have two version . One if Censored and another one is uncensored version.


And anyway , that's all for now . I hope you enjoy my choice of P!Nk's songs . More videos on youtube.com 


Thank You .

money could do the all the trick

If money is like the air I breathe . I'd like to be deadly suffocated .  

If money is like the amount of hair . I like my hair best . 

If money is like the amount of calories and fats I consumed . I'd love to be as fat as I am now . 

If only whatever I wish for is not just a wish . Some people are hard different , some are the same , some are in between the two . And I am in the three of it. I'd like to be rich , not famous , kind , pretty in and out , and have what every girl would die for . I am okayy when I'm in my duper positive state , but I could sometime be upset with what I have . Not being too ungrateful . But wishing I would have everything that I want . I mean , thing . Not everything in a sense that I want to have people that I want . Sometimes  I think it's easier to be a guy , because guys never cares about what he has . 

Well , I care for the bags I carry , shoes I wear , clothes I put on , accesories I choose and more physical stuff . It is a big deal to me . I dont mind spending on expensive item , but I can only do it sometime . I don't earn a cent , yet . I wish I don't have to . I wish my parents could just pass it on me . Flash me a credit card with unbelievable limit .

                                   

How does it feel to carry a Damier Ebene Canvas or maybe Birkin ? I would die to have them , no I wouldnt . My life is more precious than few 'k' to a number . But I still want at least a Vertu . Please mom . Oh forget it . Every penny you spend is a penny that you would appreciate as you earn it yourself . Every Damier Ebene Canvas you carry worth more than a fortune if you use the money you earn . 

So at the end of the day , I find that , I dont really have to be a Raja , Tengku or Dato' or even Tan Sri's daughter to have a classic Birkin , vintage Chanel , Damier Ebene Canvas Lv . I could still be me , myself and have them . And they are the ones who should be grateful to have me as their master hehe *evil grin* All I need to do is study hard , work hard , earn hard . I dont want to say that it's very "duniawi" as it satisfy me a lot . I would say that , it's a reward I should give myself if I manage to earn lots of cash . But before getting myself one of those , I'd like to give my mom a reward she deserve to get . 1st reward is my over-booming/succesful career and goodjob . 2nd reward is to be able to provide her with my stable financial . 3rd  reward her favourite handbag , you name it mom . Imma get you your Fendi the real one ofcourse . 4th cute and loving grandkids . 5th lead a happy life . All five as a token of appreciation . 

I should stop wishing what I wasnt born to have or to be . I know I should learn to suck it all in , and try to be what I wasnt born to be . I can always change my destiny with a little help from god . 

lama tak update .

walaupun block aku takde orang baca sangat , still aku nak mintak maaf sebab tak update . incase ada fans to my block lah kan :D

few reasons kenapa aku sendiri rasa block aku boring ;

1. post yang too emotional . 
2. less colour , dull . 
3. header yang ala ala perasan .
4. less gambar 
5. post yang too ke-sendiri-an . 
6. bosan
7. bosan 
8. bosan
9. syok sendiri 
10. tak de uummpphhh 

sedih pulak on behalf of my block . but after all , my purpose of having a block bukan nya untuk share apa apa sangat . main reason is to let myself express my thoughts and feelings *nama block zara* 

jadi sukahati aku lah nak post apa kat block aku kan haha . lame-mo T_T