no matter how hard we try , no matter how long I waited , no matter how bad I sacrifice . it wont work out . I know you know this as well . and I know this is one of the reason why we didnt try to patch things up again for the how many times i couldnt remember . My mom may says yes , my dad will never say so . Same goes to your mom , I still remember the look in her face . So , I guess its pretty much for the best . Eventhough Im hurting myself , its just a feeling that I cant let go , not now .