what do i do ?

I cant cheat,
I cant leave you,
I cant dump you,
I can do nothing without you.
but having you is a mistake I MUST SAY.
This is soo wrong,
We shouldnt do this,
I know,
From the start, I start the game,
but it was never my intention.
I know what Im about to do is your greatest fear,
Goshh I wish I wont be doing this kinda thing to you.
But what do I do ?
I werent given any choice,
I mean I miss him,
I love you, but all this is soo wrong.
It isnt you, it isnt any of you.
Its me, goshhh !
If I were given a choice I would choose you,
What do I do ?
Im sorry,