Tuesday, June 30, 2009

3rd post

I'm posting my third post for today.

Since I can't spit the word out to anybody, I chose to write. Today I've been pretty upset. Don't know why. I can't even look at dia. Its not that I don't dare its just a bit of unsatisfied feelings.

I'm never ashamed of admiting it. It's really painful when dia tried to deny it. I'm not being so "perasan"but I knew there's something hidden behind few unclear things.

How long do I have to wait? I waited long enough but at least dia should make things be clearer than ever. I've done my parts, bila dia nak play dia punya part.

I am confused. With everything, myself, dia and so many stuff that happen. Dia came without any sign and now leaving me behind as if I never exist in dia punya life. Who am I to you? A plush toy ?
A chocolate that you can play while it melts ?
I'm not one of that kind.

I am a HUMAN BEING with a tiny and fragile heart. I can never be the dominant player to your games. I am not a monopoly nor snake&ladder.
I am not a drypers easy pants nor wee wee dry.

Please do me right. I deserve to be respect. You're turnin to complete stranger to me.
Hampir tidak kenal lo.

Haha Weird because I laugh and cry at the same time. I don't even know what I'm thinking.

It's funny because I'm listening to Nicholas Teo .

I don't know what I'm thinking. I've been in a bad mood from the minute I woke up.
Why is it so hard? For both of us? Why can't it be any easier? Pleaseee X(


1 comment:

Safrinaz Safry said...

Whose the " dia " ? haha , :D
anyway , your post seem you must be in much pain . sorry on the behalf , as a friend - if you need anything , talk and i'll help you :)